hmmm...i know the truth its not easy to teach someone that u close...sometimes you had a courage to deal with it....hmm..i learn that today and keep to myself as reminder...what ever it is i love him....but sometimes he dont wanna hear what i want he to hear....ya....girls are not really straightforward when they do something.....

now i realize when u grow to be an adult there are a lot of thing that u need to think and need to be consider....i wonder why??? i have to face this kind of thing...but deep inside in my heart i know it is called as responsibility.....hmmmm...but there also lot of think that i really didnt clear it myself...im not only have to think about my future job, but also i have to think about my family, my lover, my responsilibility as daughter....n more n more....until at one point i wish i can stop a time and settle the thing that really important and then comes to the other....huhuhu..but i cant do that....wawawawawawa....i think i have quite a huge responsibility...and my lover want us to get married asap...i know i wanted to..but i have money constraints....at least before married i have to but a family car and even a house for them so my parent can be relax and have a bigger house....but i also wanna have a saving for my wedding...coz i wanna make my wedding to the best as i could where non of my friend and family would complain about it...wa...i donno whether i can make it or not..i hope i det a good job with a good salary and the most important thing is i can perform well in anything that i do...