he busy..dont have much tym wif me...

and its seems like he quite different today....

i do meet him TODAY and he look fine...

then later he send a msg....

im feel strange because he's typing a certain word that he rarely used before...

i know u bz my love...

but do not change yourself not even for once....

i love you more than u ever know...

more than u ever feels...

u are the second person in my heart after my family....

dont ever leave me...

love me as i do loving you...

give me your heart as i do to you....

hmmm....at first i do angry wif those statement but when things going back to normal..

its not seem like normal anymore there not many conversation that i can make wif her...

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i do admit the mistake that i make and also i forgive her....

i try to be matured although im quite disappointed that she also point out to the other person...

but its seems like i was the one who make things to b like this...

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now she not sleeping at hall at all....

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she sleep on her room..but it make me feels very sorry to her...

since she not comfortable with the room because its quite hot due to the whether nowadays...

i do feel sorry to her again...

i dont want to make she sad or angry...

by making thing to be as normal as i can...

it would take time....

but.............................

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i dont know what to say..

she also less speaking nowadays...even i dont have faith to tell

everybody what was going on.....

SORRY GALSSSS................

haii ya....its been along time i didnt post anything on my blog...

u wanna noe y...b'coz its not my hobby...

but i jus started to write again...

i learn dat when the quite person start angry and mad...

the word dat coming out from their mouth its like a thunder on a cloud...

im...sorry i noe dat im not knowing dat u r really stressed

dat tym

n may b...u exploded juz b'coz u keed everything inside and blow it out...

last 2 days b'coz u cant hold it anymore...

u can made at me...

and i know its my fault bu dont point out ur angry to the rest of the house...

they not hurting u at all

they all concern abt u...even they know the u r tired wif ur work

u just can made at me....

i understood...plus i admit it was my fault...

it i stayed far or go near to sha to ask the question it may not happen

i thought the word the u written is from smbdy else...

but i read a few times n i noticed it coming out from u...

im sad i made u made and ashamed what i've been done to u....

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i've been thinking...i may move from this house...

i know i cant speak at a low volume although i do try...

i will find other alternative...

firstly, i may looking for the job at nearest of my house...

but if i do get job around here...

i'm not sure i have a courage to stay here anymore...

even now i cant faced u...

i dont have dat courage...

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it may seem like i wanna run away from problem...

but the sentence dat u given to me...its hardly to be accepted...

i dont want everybody get involved...

they're too nice...and i also dont want the rest of the house know abt this...

i will keep quite and leave the house... quietly...

they may b mad at me...

but i wont take long...may b i felt this way b'coz it newly happen

but i dunno dat icant get along wif u well in future...

even u has given me shirt fom pangkor and i owe u...thx for that..

what i'm hopping is sha is not quilty..plzzz speak to her...

if u juz wanna ignore me...

i can understood dat...