Patient while u can
There r ppl want ur baby to be their baby..
4 them u dont know how to handle ur baby
Bear that in ur mind....
So u wont cross the line

How hurt u are
Just let Allah know
No one can help u

I know dat is not what u plan
Even if u feel like u want to run away
Just let ur heart run
Let your tears fly
ALLAH know u can handle it
U r stronger more than u think
Or elso ALLAH  wont test u

Be happy..be strong
If there r things dat u dont like
Just IGNORE IT

i got a lot type of feeling
If not because if respect im might loose my temper...tend to love
But the pic let me not to love

Still im realize...
When its my turn i choose to be alone
Choose to have a career
So i can fly away
Be away for all the hatred feeling

I know u dont trust me..but one word
Im also a mother..who will understand me
Who gonna cheer me up
To the blog i expressed how i feel
Ive been hurt..i cry in my solat
But only ALLAH know
This is journey dat HE  setup 4 me
How irritated i am
I will just face it
Be positive..be bright..be pleade
How annoying i am
I will just smile..even if i have to fake it..
Just keep spread ur love n learn to love
ALLAH never let u down


Last word smile ppl..ignore ppl who being ignorance...

This is soo goood...after such a long years....
Now im married...
N i hv a such a lovely baby boy..now he 6mths aldy
I dont like blog...
But somehow i need to find a way to spill to express how i felt

B4 dat. Last entry i read i talk about how stupid i am after what he did to me...but now im gladly said and share he is now my husbnd...
Im feel so bless to choose him..
Hes so damn good husbnd..
A good friend of my
My best friend.. my listener...

So far...things hv been so good...

Just today..i found out my mil said "me dont know how to cook"...
4 me i know how to cook but no da way u guys gonna like it...
Even after deliver i try to cook 4 myself but she said..wat pe nak msk mama dah msk..
Btol mama dah msk but i want to eat what i want...but in order nak jge hati ak pon mkn..n x msk..tmbh keje blk pon lwt...

But i got my target regarding msk ni
My milestone is once my baby reach 6mth i will cook again...n now i got a lot of think dat i want to cook..but agter hear what my mil said...i feel so offended...

I cant share this feeling with my husbnd nor to a good friend of my....kalau x it seemd like bke peking di dada..so what i did to throw this feeling IS!!!!!. I google n lucky i found my old blogg....

Dat da reason 4 mw to start writing again...
Actually i got 1000 stories to be write but da rest i just keep to myself 1st cz i still got some space 4 it in my heart..but diz story i cant keeo dat y i write again....

But what ever it is...i make a PROMISE to myself. I wanna b happy i choose 2 be hapoy  i will slide it away..cz this is 4 da sake of my husbnd..i dont wanna know if he choose his mother over me.. if i share with him how i feel..

I will b +ve about this..im broken now but i wont show my weak side..i take dis as challenge to improve myself..i dont want to feel defeated over -ve vibes...i choose to be +ve...to stay strong n da most important part i want to cool 4 my baby..he will eat only what i cook..not from my mother or mil..  they can replace how i shower my love to my baby on how i cook...and etc....

Last word : even if i died today..i will be happy cz i choose to be happy and to make my hubby happy...may Allah make me an angle 4 my husbnd..who will wait 4 him at the Jannah..Aminnn~~~~

ak dh lme x bke blog ak

hari ak blaja satu bende

ak myb x bape bgs sgt mcm kwn ak nih

ak pon byk blaja n keep blaja utk excel dlm pe yg ak wat

tp ak ni keras kepala ckt

ape yg ak tgk hari ni

puan2 kt opis ak puji kwn ak yg kwn ak ni mcm diaorg

kwn ak ni ade ciri2 mcm diaorg

pastu ak pk...puan2 ni b4 ckp die pk yg ak ade kt c2

ape pndgn ak bile diaorg ckp mcm 2

w/pon ak tgk bende ni at the positive side

tp ak wonder kt diri send

np ak rs mcm trsindir

ak tau kwn ak ni mmg bgs dlm wat keje

die mmg fast leaner

n dia pon send admit die ske keje yg die wat nih

tp ak x mcm die

ade mase ak cpt blaja

tp bile tym blur ak 2 dtg

lmbt ckt ak nk fhm

ape motif puan2 2 ckp mcm 2

ntah ak pn x fhm

btol ak way keje kdg2 x bape detail

kdg2 ak ske amik mudah

tp at the same tym ak blaja dr kesilapn ak

n ak x keep repeating the same mistake

tp ntah la

myb Allah je tau kot

pn 2 ade niat ke x tym die ckp mcm 2

ntah ak pn x fhm

sbb 2 la kalo diaorg jmpe kwn2 ak nih

ak x amik port n ak x dgr conversation diaorg

coz ak pgg pada independent

die kwn ak

kwn yg baik ngn ak

so bile kt opis die kire org atsan ak

n ak akn buktikan

ak ble wat keje

ngn cara ak...

no more cry no more tears................

i HATE HIM......

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/photo.php?pid=142714&id=100000811116649

ni lah slah satu link yg menunjukkn pic die....mcm siotttttttttttt

its getting more n more painful...

jus a few minutes ago i open his gf fb...

n i just saw that his gf already change her status in a relationship....

sumpah ak jeles n x ske....he used to b mine...but now die ade org ln...

ak x tau mcm ner nk explain....

cme ak sgt rindu die....

x tau mcm ner nk ckp....he make mylife complete...

wat mase ni ak ttp dl hati ak

biar mase yg tentukan segalanya

tibe2 td ak pk punye pk...

ak rs dh tibe mase ak utk lpe kn die

ak tau die cari ak coz k.ayu xde kt cni

die boring

so ak dh hantar msj

ak ckp stop main kn hati ak

coz pape yg jd die ade akak 2

n weeknd je die mesti g jmpe akak 2 kn g date

so what for ak layan org yg xnk nilai syg ak selama 4thn

im decide...stop being a stupid

n its not worth anymore to crying for a person who dont love u anymore

even ak ckp kalo xnk jgk pulgkn brg 2

ak akan mintak dr akak 2...

die ptt tau ak slalu wat ape yg ak ckp

so its final....

ak nk blaja hidup send n bgn jatuh send

dh lme ak berkorban n mkn hati lately

enough its enough...

he still have her n u r alone....

die cari ko sbb die gaduh ngn akak 2

n mggu lps die lyn ko coz akak 2 g pahang

so bile akak 2 ade u r still leftover...

what for u r crying out loud to that person

its not worth anymore..

buttttt...............

i still love him........

ak rase pe yg ak rs 2 btol

die cme cari ak coz die boring

coz akak 2 xde kt cni

coz bile ak cari die...die x lyn

die kate main kompng

aihhh!!!!!

mai kompg dr pkl 12 smpai skrg ker

bkn ker die main kompg ptg2 jer besenyer

hmmmmm..........

laki ttp laki...

ak rs bodoh btol....

coz still cr die lg...

lgpon die tau ak xleh nk tggl knn die

2 la die slalu jer lyn ak

tp bile weeknd

x lyn

JAHATTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haih....ak cbe benci die tp x leh

skt tol hati nih...

tp akk ttp nk die...coz die bleh fhm ak

org ln ssh nk fhm ak nih

hmmmm......

pnt la....pastu semlm die kate die peneman ak

padahal die yg bosan kn

awek xde kt cni

yelah papehal pon

die ttp ngn akak 2

ttp msj n kol akak 2

ak ni pe ade...

syg die pn ak x dapat

attention dr die pon ak dh x dapat

sme nye bg kt org ln kn....sedih tol...

np la ak ni jns yg lembut hati sgtttttt