break off

15/06/2010

tarikh ak break off ngn die

ya Allah sungguh ak rindu dkt die but he wont b mine anymore...

i miss him...

every second i miss him....im still love him...

i try to hate him but i dunno how to do....

but i do realize he wont be mine anymore....

tp ak cme mintak satu jer ya Allah...kau tabah kn lah hatiku...

hati ak ckp rapuh....

ak tkot nk jmpe die....

even terserempak ngn die pon ak xnk....

ak tkot ngn prasaan ak send....

tp nape 16/06/2010 (semalam)

die hantar pic yg die nangis...

np nk nangis after what u have been done....

ak tahu ak x perfect...n kau spttnye didik ak utk fulfill ape yg mama nak...

ak tahu ak ni kebudak2kn....

tp kalo ko ayg ak ko didik ak...

n smlm ko nangis...pastu ko susun blk gmbr2 kite sme....

wat pe ko wat bende 2 sme....

xde makne dh...

ko xkn blk dkt ak....

ko dh pilih org ln...even malam yg kite putus...

ko mintak ak jgn salah kn ayu....

but fine ak x salah kn die...

bt i do hate her....wanna know why...

because im jeles....so jeles...

i cant even think how u touch her...hug her or even kiss her....

i try so hard to hold myself from crying....

because ur love means a lot to me....

but u already choose her....

dat the truth.....

even u bring her to meet mama....

n u dont even clash wif me by the time u couple wif her

its sooo sooo sad...by y after dat u crying...

u also da one who admit that...

ur love for me its not stronger anymore....

but y do u cry...

n i do know guy just sad...4 a while but not for woman....

know i try to reorganize everything in my life....

i dont wanna get married anymore...

i hate wedding n guys....

i just wanna work....

but still i love him...he the first n the last guy i ever love...

even he's shock that i've print out all of our photo together

yes i do print out....

because i treasure our relationship.....

dat y by the day i wanna hear from ur mouth that u want to break off with me

i bring all those thing that u already give to me....

i dont wanna keep even a little tine thng dat make me remembr u....

i throw it away to u...

because i wanna u to feel even for second....

how it feel to b leftout....

4 years relationship seems to b like a trash for u....

but i still do admit....u r the perfect guy i ever met..

loving,caring,funny, sensitive, etc...

u have all the criteria that i want...one of it is family man...

but u dont love me anymore.....

u dont love me....

dat its really heartful to accept all this thing....