Patient while u can
There r ppl want ur baby to be their baby..
4 them u dont know how to handle ur baby
Bear that in ur mind....
So u wont cross the line

How hurt u are
Just let Allah know
No one can help u

I know dat is not what u plan
Even if u feel like u want to run away
Just let ur heart run
Let your tears fly
ALLAH know u can handle it
U r stronger more than u think
Or elso ALLAH  wont test u

Be happy..be strong
If there r things dat u dont like
Just IGNORE IT

i got a lot type of feeling
If not because if respect im might loose my temper...tend to love
But the pic let me not to love

Still im realize...
When its my turn i choose to be alone
Choose to have a career
So i can fly away
Be away for all the hatred feeling

I know u dont trust me..but one word
Im also a mother..who will understand me
Who gonna cheer me up
To the blog i expressed how i feel
Ive been hurt..i cry in my solat
But only ALLAH know
This is journey dat HE  setup 4 me
How irritated i am
I will just face it
Be positive..be bright..be pleade
How annoying i am
I will just smile..even if i have to fake it..
Just keep spread ur love n learn to love
ALLAH never let u down


Last word smile ppl..ignore ppl who being ignorance...

This is soo goood...after such a long years....
Now im married...
N i hv a such a lovely baby boy..now he 6mths aldy
I dont like blog...
But somehow i need to find a way to spill to express how i felt

B4 dat. Last entry i read i talk about how stupid i am after what he did to me...but now im gladly said and share he is now my husbnd...
Im feel so bless to choose him..
Hes so damn good husbnd..
A good friend of my
My best friend.. my listener...

So far...things hv been so good...

Just today..i found out my mil said "me dont know how to cook"...
4 me i know how to cook but no da way u guys gonna like it...
Even after deliver i try to cook 4 myself but she said..wat pe nak msk mama dah msk..
Btol mama dah msk but i want to eat what i want...but in order nak jge hati ak pon mkn..n x msk..tmbh keje blk pon lwt...

But i got my target regarding msk ni
My milestone is once my baby reach 6mth i will cook again...n now i got a lot of think dat i want to cook..but agter hear what my mil said...i feel so offended...

I cant share this feeling with my husbnd nor to a good friend of my....kalau x it seemd like bke peking di dada..so what i did to throw this feeling IS!!!!!. I google n lucky i found my old blogg....

Dat da reason 4 mw to start writing again...
Actually i got 1000 stories to be write but da rest i just keep to myself 1st cz i still got some space 4 it in my heart..but diz story i cant keeo dat y i write again....

But what ever it is...i make a PROMISE to myself. I wanna b happy i choose 2 be hapoy  i will slide it away..cz this is 4 da sake of my husbnd..i dont wanna know if he choose his mother over me.. if i share with him how i feel..

I will b +ve about this..im broken now but i wont show my weak side..i take dis as challenge to improve myself..i dont want to feel defeated over -ve vibes...i choose to be +ve...to stay strong n da most important part i want to cool 4 my baby..he will eat only what i cook..not from my mother or mil..  they can replace how i shower my love to my baby on how i cook...and etc....

Last word : even if i died today..i will be happy cz i choose to be happy and to make my hubby happy...may Allah make me an angle 4 my husbnd..who will wait 4 him at the Jannah..Aminnn~~~~